Preparing for Kona

Rewind and Right Now: Lost Within Myself

I’m going to be honest here, thus week has been challenging.  Due to some unexpected recent events I have been experiencing PTSD.  I have been having some every similar emotions as expressed in the piece I wrote in mid-February if this past year.

Nothing makes me happy right now. Really truly happy. I smiled when I talked to Hannah on the phone, I chuckled at dance when Benny the dog was being silly.  But where is that complete feeling that I used to know? I used to feel full, but now I’m empty, and I’m not sure what will fill me up again.

Is Jesus enough? I sincerely believe that he is a God that can do all things, but does that mean that we depend on only him? Are those pills that I have learned to resent part of God’s will for me?

A woman that I look up to always tells me that “we are rulers of our own destiny.” I think there is truth in this, yet where does God’s sovereignty fit in? I want to have a successful life, I have dreams and goals. But I’m not there yet. I’m stuck in the here and now, where sleeping feels good, living takes work and God feels so far away.

When I can think clearly enough, these are the questions I am asking. Yet for the last few days (or weeks), thinking clearly is rare. My thoughts conflict, and stress comes rushing in like a whirlwind. I want help, I need something to change. I don’t know what that looks like, and I’m scared.

 My 18th birthday is quickly approaching, and I’m moving out this Saturday. This new freedom is something I have dreamed of for years, bu suddenly, its scary. Maybe that is normal? Maybe I just won’t know until I’m there.

Well, I have to be up and moving in six hours, so I should probably wrap up my rambling. Maybe this has done some good? Maybe I will awake with renewed energy and motivation? Somehow I doubt it. For now I will give in to sleep and hope for a better day tomorrow. Help me Jesus, I am lost within myself. Teach me to find myself in you. 

Thank you for reading my friends. Please don’t hesitate at all to send a prayer in my name! Please do! These are hard days, everything aches and hurts.

Blessings!

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Current Blessings

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I am so blessed by King Jesus right now! Here is just a little overview:

  • Great progression on my Swing Dance Fundraiser, so many people willing to help! Which all the different people involved, it is being made clear that this event is becoming way more than just about me and my trip!  Its about the swing dance community being introduced to Christ and missions in a healthy, open environment. Its about non- swing dancers being introduced to the swing dance community and seeing that it is a great way to get to know other people and stay active.
  • School has started and is going well! I am enrolled full time at the local community college.  I have been blessed by some really inspiring teachers this term!  My first ever psychology class is very interesting, I can tell already that it will be hard; not because of the homework quantity but of the quality and how it focuses on personal reflection.  That is going to be hard for me.  My writing and speech teachers are also awesome, I could listen to both of them talk forever.  My biology class is mediocre, but that is to be expected from a creative right-brainer. At least I have friends in the class with me, and the labs can be fun.
  • My health is doing much better! During these past few days my RLS (Restless Leg Syndrome) symptoms has been fading, which is incredible! It is wondrous to take baths and showers because I want to and not because I need to to get my twitching and itching to calm down.  I will have a blood test soon to see if my iron levels have gone up, for that is what is causing the RLS (we think).  I have had pretty good energy since school has started, I wasn’t sure if that would be the case.  Also, I have not had very much anxiety or hard feelings lately, which is always a plus. 🙂
  • I am surrounded by friends of all colors, worldviews, orientations, ages and locations. I am blessed with the best of friends!  Lately I have been getting to know some new friends and connect with old friends too.  This is one of the things I love about being in school.  I am also loving getting to know my new twitter friends! Some people would argue that they aren’t “real” friends, but I believe that some of them really are.  Especially when then you meet them in person.

Well I could go on and on with the ways that God is blessing me, but alas I have homework and a bed calling me name, so I will leave it at that.  Thank you for reading, praying and supporting!

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Swing Dance Fundraiser Reminder and Update!

Hello friends!

First of, just wanted to remind you that my fundraiser swing dance event is coming up: Friday, October 25th! For more info, read previous blog post Fundraiser Swing Dance and/or join the Facebook Event.

Also, I have some new information about the event!  Saturday Market’s SCOOPS ice cream will be selling ice cream by donation! They have several flavors available.  In addition, there will be several types of homemade baked goods, snacks and beverages available.

The Stumptown Stompers, a local swing performance group lead by Mindy Barnhart of Stumptown Dance, will be doing a short performance!  You won’t want to miss it, especially if you are new to swing!

We now have flyers available created by local graphic designer and swing dancer Peter Litster.  Feel free to download and share them by clicking here.

Thank you so much, hope to see you there! Blessings!

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Fundraiser Swing Dance: To Kona And Beyond!

I (Heather McClish) am hosting a special night of swing dancing all to support a good cause! I is preparing to take part in a six month missions program with Youth With A Mission (YWAM) in January, and thought that there would be no better way to raise awareness and funds than by hosting a swing dancing fundraiser! 

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Date:  Friday October 25th, 2013

Time:  7:00 pm-11:00 pm

Cost:  $8 – per dancers ten and older

Location:  Milwaukie Community Center

10666 SE 42nd Ave (SE 42nd & Jackson); Milwaukie, Oregon 97222  View Map . Get Directions

 

Agenda: 

7:00 – Doors open

7:30 – Beginning East Coast Swing Lesson taught by David Dang and Rachael Ries

8:00 – Intermediate East Coast Swing Lesson taught by David Dang and Rachael Ries

8:30-11:00 DJed open dancing with a break for announcements a special performance.DJed open dancing with a break for announcements and a special performance

Age Requirements: 

Children, Parents, Grandparents; all ages and levels are welcome!  Swing dancing is recommended for ages 10 and above, and Heather highly advises that new dancers attend the beginning lesson.  Younger children may come as long as they are looked after and kept off of the dance floor.

Beverages and Snacks:

Beverages and snacks will be available for purchase by donation.

No food and drinks on the dance floor.

Food and beverages must remain in the basement.

Dress:

Is anywhere from casual to semiformal, just wear something you can move in!  Because of the culture of East Coast Swing, some people enjoy wearing vintage styles.  Please be considerate of the modesty of your clothing, we want this to be a family-friendly event.

SHOES:

Whatever shoes you choose to wear, please make sure they are CLEAN!  This is a really nice dance floor we are getting to use and we want to keep it this way!  Please do not come in dirty shoes or boots which make black marks on the floor.

Invite Friends

Please feel free to invite your friends.  You can use the facebook event page https://www.facebook.com/events/667157336628757/ .  It will be a night you will not want to miss!

Blessings to you,

Heather and all the members of the planning committee

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Save the Date: Fundraiser Swing Dance!

SAVE THE DATE!!! Fundraiser Swing Dance for my YWAM DTS (big missions trip)!

Friday, October 25th – Milwaukie Community Center
Beginner and intermediate lesson taught by exceptional teachers, Swing Performance, DJed dancing and treats!

More info to come, hopefully the official fb event and flyers ready by next Sunday!

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DTS Audition Video

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Gleanings 2013

A couple of weeks ago I got the privilege of traveling to the YWAM base Gleanings for the Hungry in Central California with a group of ninety young  adults from various churches in the Portland/Vancouver area.  We processed and packaged donated peaches that get sent out all over the world with the gospel.  While we were there, two trucks of food got sent out, one to Zambia and the other to Mexico.  I was really blessed by the fellowship I got to have while I was there, especially by the staff who have already completed DTS’s (Discipleship Training Programs, which is what I am doing in January).  They spoke so many words of blessing to me regarding my walk with God and my upcoming trip!  I brought my laptop and worked on my DTS application while I was there, but also ended up putting together a slideshow of the trip that we played at the end of the week! Please enjoy the video and pictures.

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One of my DTS advice questionnaires filled out by Gleanings staff

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Sleeping in the car on the way to Gleanings

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The group riding in our car (dubbed “The Infirmary”) on the way home

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“Cupping up” peaches in the field
Photo Credit: Rebecca Miller

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Bucket washing
Photo Credit: Brooke Young

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Keeping my eyes on the Cross
Photo Credit: Brooke Young

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Worship in the peach fields
Photo Credit: Brooke Young

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